Very very tired

I know for sure that I dislike the sun. That and not enough water,not enough rest and too much activities makes u sick.Even an apple a day makes it difficult to not want to go see doctor.The only 2 things holding me back are distance to travel to see the doctor(u see,ntu/nie students do not have to pay consultation fees when they see doctors in school) and the money(u still need to pay for the medicine). And when I get unwell,I become emo.And when I become emo,I become short-tempered.And when I'm short-tempered,I get impatient.And when impatient,I turn into a nasty creature who needs a lot of time,patience and energy. You never want to get me into this state.And sad to say I was in this state for almost the past 3 days.And I'm beginning to crumble physically and mentally.With so much coming up for IVP training and so much expectations,I'm not looking forward so much to playing anymore. I am mentally tired and I want a break. Hopefully I can r & r enough in Bali next week.